wad is happening to my life man... think i totally ruined it... overcame one thing, another one come... im sick... im tired... im down and im still being scolded... confidence level dropped to zero again juz now... cried in the car on the way home and cried and cried... im juz sick of everything right now... im freaking tired... but this problem juz keep bugging me... how would people know how i felt... maybe some do... sigh... im not putting myself down here... but... i juz wanna leave everything to Him... i even wanted to run away from church juz now... praise Him for lifting me up on my feet... sigh... the old feeling back.... like my heart being poured acid... tmr's sermon is said to be great... i look forward and pray tt i will feel better tmr...

7/23/2005 10:32:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

wa... today is a great day... haha had 3hrs of maths la... nearly become a freak... but well i love maths haha... so i enjoyed it... i bought harry potter!!! haha dun say i waste money... my mom sponsor... and u know wad happen during bible study today? we had discipleship and i learnt bout accountability... and ariel ask me bout tt particular question... and u know wad? ytd i juz prayed to the Lord and i lift up my problems to Him that He may help me solve it... then today this happen... God really will work out a way when u dunno wad to do... then the devil will try to stop... i was very eager to solve the problem... yet one voice keep bugging me saying that why shud i report to ariel everything... so nosy and it is my personal life u know... but in the end i still told her the whole problem... but im still the one who started it... so im mostly at fault... i really apologize to "you know who you are" and i hope u all will forgive me...

7/20/2005 11:07:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

wow.... ytd sermon rox ok... and the atmosphere was sooo great i was almost overwhelmed... i really wanna give wadever i can to build God a new church... even if it means precious to me... he will never go back on His word that blessings shall come as we give unto Him and sow... i love Him... i learnt alot from sean... i became more hungry for Him and His word... i do haf a calling in life... and i will fulfil the calling... God will test me... but he will never contradict wad he says in the Bible... I really start to see His will form in my life... how i get into this cell group... and how ariel came... and help sean n i grew so much... but when i look back... to the 5 yrs i spent... being saved... but not even once fellowship wif Him nor even haf faith in Him... i dunno how i lived thru... without the Holy Spirit in me... but i came into chc... so hungry for Him... and heart so open towards Him... i juz wanna know how wad i had done for the last few years would make a difference in my life... im astonished by how he works... it is like AMAZING haha... whatever things that are impossible with man, are possible with God!

7/18/2005 11:28:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

today AP rehearsal sux... the sun was broiling haha... then i got some sunburn when im not even facing the sun... my should was aching and cramping and Troop Leader Daniel Toh Ming Yuan refused to let me fall out to rest a while... i went thru 2 rehearsals screwing up quite a few times becuz i was veri tired and distracted then i cannot follow the commands... then when we finished the 2nd going on to the 3rd, we heard rain but we felt nothing... so we decided to run for shelter and guess wad, we saw the 2 sides, one dry one wet haha... and we're like running towards the rain as it comes toward us... veri funny... tmr listening comphre!!! (rejoice) and no scouts (more rejoicing) and haf overnite prayer meeting (hurrraaay!!!!) haha... sat during cg will be half asleep haha.. then ytd got o lvl chi oral mah... then hor... suay suay im the last person in my grp... then its like wait until 5pm then my turn in the air con hall nvm... but the worst is... i sat wif 2 other stranger teachers in the whole hall by myself when everyone all zhao already!!!! sigh... but the topic was quite easy... cuz we coincidentally talked about the topic that was out in the hall and i sorta rmb wad to say haha... wah i dunno why i suddenly got alot of vouchers... coffee bean, attributes, spectacles... blessings from Him haha...

7/14/2005 10:54:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

wah ariel so bz... she muz be tired lor... fly here fly there... then still got so many cg to take care of... haha... so the more we shud not let her worry... today svc was super sia... i was worshipping... then started tearing... love Him... then after that during fellowship serena talked bout rev mike is gonna cast out spirits during his svc 3 wks from now... then she said morbid stuff bout her frens encounter wif evil spirits and casting out of them... and i found something inside me very aroused la... as though very scared of that day... so if i manifest that day dun get shocked haha... i feel veri sad for my family la... they r trapped in the world of the wrong path... my dad come say wad when the older generation dies off we would not burn offerings for them becuz i am a christian... is like... so contradicting... they talked bout next life and cycle... one thing, burn for them for wad? second, burning is originated when old testament ppl burn incense and offering to God... so meaning it will ascend to heaven, how issit gonna get to them when they are said to be hell... so i went to ask him bout coming to church and he started giving excuses... until i reach home then he shoo me off... sigh...

i had a super obscene incident today in the mrt also... haha... apparently there was this indian guy who dressed very shabbily... then he came in the mrt in front of us... wif his pants unzipped... wads worse is he didnt even wear undies... then can see that thing la... praise the Lord only brothers were there... imagine any of the chopstix sistas there... lol... and nat was like luffing non stop... and we were luffing from jurong east all the way to outram park where he got off... so sick... *puke*

7/10/2005 08:49:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

Your #1 Match: INFJ

The Protector You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them. You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

Your #2 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #3 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #4 Match: ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #5 Match: INTJ

The Scientist You have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems. Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized. You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others. Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you. You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer.

haha i like the last one...

7/10/2005 01:32:00 AM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY

haha broke my bi weekly record wahahaha... lame lol... so tired... not only i everyday sleep after midnite and wake up b4 6... i even went swimming on sat and monday... without goggles... then the stupid chlorinated water keeping getting into my eyes until it got super red and after that my eyes was drooping and everyone tot i was sick or smth... haha... lost the sparkle haha... anyway i was tot a super nice slide game called the haagen dam(haagen daaz) haha its like we lie down on the slide to collect as much water as we can, then when every dam(us) is filled, we released our dam and the water comes down like a wave haha... and it was like so fun cuz its exciting... then we tried alot of stupid things... so tired... i go sleep le haha

7/04/2005 11:40:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY